September 12, 2008

” Your default response to every situation should always be to trust God rather than thinking up reasons to doubt Him. Remember His power and know that you can always rely on Him.”

stained glass masquerade

 

the video isn’t that great… but i love this song..

Honestly

so my grad is the day after tomorrow. and to be perfectly honest, im scared to death. I don’t know if im ready to leave all of this behind, as much as i want to be done with high school, when i really started thinking about it, i started freaking out a little bit, because ever since i was 5 years old, what have i been doing? i have been going to school 5 days a week from 9 to 3:30, and now thats all going to change, and i dont know if im ready for that. a part of me isn’t ready to close this chapter of my life.

 i don’t deal well with change, i think thats why im scared, i want stay in this comfortable world, and never have to enter the unknown. im not ready to leave behind the innocence of being young and safe and naive.. maybe those arnt the right words for everybody, but thats how i see myself when i look back on all those years…. so just to warn you all i will probably be a mess on grad day… even though i have said over and over again that grad won’t be that big of a deal to me, i lied. its a huge deal….

and im scared to death….

my plans for the future

i would like to take a little vacation from life

run away to some deserted island and lay on the beach all day

no people…no worries

 

so thats my plan for the future right now and somewhere deep down inside i hope it works out….

woot woot

i am now the newest member of Team Candian Tire Wainwright.

woot woot!

A Conversation Between My Mother And I About What To Wear

Me: Those socks don’t match those pants.

Mom: I know, thats why im getting changed.

Me: What are you going to put on?

Mom: (frustrated) I don’t know, that’s why I’m not getting changed.

(giggle)

Mom: (gazing off into the distance) I wish we were on star trek and all just wore those one peice suits everyday…

Silence

(Hysterical Laughter)

 

 

Cassette Tapes

 

This makes me smile. I miss the days of rockin’ out to a Michael W. Smith cassette tape on the way to stettler with mom in the big blue van, pretty confident that in those moments I was the coolest person ever…

So the other day I dug out my shoe box of cassette tapes and rocked out to some DC talk on the way to school, and for a very brief moment I brought back that confidence that I was once again the coolest person ever…

Fantastic

so today i started a new job.

also today i quit my new job.

fantastic…

Good Friday

The ultimate most powerful act of sacrifice. The almighty savior hung his head and with that came this gift. A gift of overwhelming mercy and grace to a people so underserving. Today I am in awe, words won’t do justice for what i feel, but i am completely and utterly overwhelmed by the sacrifice, a sacrifice that i can not even comprehend. There are not words from my mouth that could describe the feeling i felt sitting in the church this morning. Tears could not be held back as i reflected upon an all powerful Christ hanging from that cross so vulnerable and so loving. I think sometimes we like to picture God as this massive being powerful and so beautiful, and that is the only way we want to view him. I think sometimes we push the image of a beaten bloody man hanging from a cross out of our mind because we don’t want to think about that, but its only when we stop to reflect upon that image that we realize God performed his most powerful and sacrificial act at that moment. That beaten bloody man is the image of true power and of love. I think sometimes we are afraid to put our trust in that man, because that man is at his most vulnerable of moments, and we are scared of that image. Instead we like to trust in the image thats in our story books and movies the one where God is in a clean white robe sitting upon a throne, becuase it comforts us in a way. We have more faith that God is in control that way. And honestly there is not a thing wrong with that, but at the same time i felt this morning maybe it wouldnt be such a bad thing if the image of the cross came to mind more often. Maybe that beaten bloody man upon the cross has more to offer us than the storybook image of God in the clouds. Sometimes you have to push past the ugliness, the pain, and fight through the tears to find that beauty you have been looking for. To truly see Christ in a way that no storybook or movie could ever capture.

smarties

this is my favorite commercial right now

just because it makes me smile